I'm a believer in the idea that what some see as "coincidences" are signs of alignment in life. Sometimes, things seem to occur by happenstance but I feel like that's just the picture coming together. The more spiritually aware I become, the more I view things from the spiritual realm and have a clearer understanding.
Soooo, with that being said...... I LIKE SOMEBODY!! That's not new, though. I mean, I almost ALWAYS like somebody. And that's perfectly normal and healthy. No, I'm not codependent on a relationship. I don't seek to be with someone because I can't function alone. Truth be told, we (humans) aren't meant to be alone. Everyone's end game isn't marriage or a committed relationship. But every encounter we have with others, every time we allow ourselves to engage with others.....guess what.....we are creating RELATIONSHIPS! Yep. So when you regularly converse with your coworkers, schoolmates, friends, social media followers.....whatever.....you are creating and building on some type of relationship. Be it informal (social media types) or formal (school friends..etc.). That's what we do. We interact with others. Don't ever listen to someone say "I don't need anybody" , "I'm good by myself". While that may be true from a financial and even physical point of view. We all, on some emotional level, NEED others. You don't go through life not talking to anyone. No one is a total recluse. You gotta eat, right? So you talk to the delivery driver or cashier at the store, or waiter/waitress/hostess.
With that being said, it's a person's free will to decide they don't wanna build with anyone. And that, my friends, is where we are blatantly different. See, I like building with others. I wanna have that relationship where I build with someone financially, structurally, emotionally. I want to have someone's back, and that person have mine, too. I'll be the first to admit, though I have been single for a while, and have accomplished much during that time (college degrees, out of state moves, travel, this blog), I long for the day when I can share all my good times with someone. Now that doesn't make me desperate or thirsty. It makes me human and it allows me to embrace my spiritual nature, which is to connect with another being, so we can elevate each other intellectually, mentally, and spiritually. Wanting to be with someone is your soul speaking. It's kind of like when you are hungry and your stomach growls and hurts. It's hungry for food. Well, our souls get hungry, too. Hungry for spiritual connections. Feed it.
Now, back to this crush. Without saying much, I'll say this. He is a beautiful man. I don't mean like Prince beautiful (LOL). I mean, breathtakingly handsome, smart, well rounded. He's been places, seen things. The physical attraction I have to him is obvious. But what he says, his words, his spirit, all that is beautiful. And I feel my spirit wanting to let him in. Be open to him in many ways.
So what do I want from him? I want him to be in my life. And that may not look like a typical relationship. I don't' know if I will ever have a typical relationship. I'm so outside the box, so open to other relationship dynamics, I don't know if I would even allow myself to be boxed in just because that's the "norm" or the way things "should be done". But I do want conversations with him. And I want to sit in his presence. Feel his spirit. Let him feel mine. See, I see the God in him. What exactly does that mean, you ask? I see the elevation and I know I could partake in that elevation because of who I am as a woman. You see, as a woman, I want to be with someone who see his higher self, is working towards his higher self, will be with me as I elevate to my higher self, and will understand the part of me that yearns to walk with him on his journey. Now what is higher self? It's the parts of us that are enlightened, spiritually. It's like waking up and seeing the world differently. More clearly. And you look from an open view point. Like your mind is open. You seek something more than the basic "let's have sex, let's just do average things".
Okay back to the beginning. First paragraph, I spoke on coincidences. Now what does that have to do with my crush? Well, I know who he is from a group I joined (and left) in 2013. And through that group, I have met a few people. Some, in person. So I feel like that group was a catalyst to me meeting him. Like I had to go through meeting several others to get to know who he is. And trust me, none of them compare to who he is. Nor did I ever want to be to them what I want to be to him. I have communicated with him. He's an interesting guy. But I haven't professed my like for him, yet. Partly because I am a tad bit scared. But mostly because I can't read him. I don't know if he is involved with anyone. And I haven't found the way to broach the subject and casually slide into that conversation. But I know one thing: I will not wait and let another woman come along and profess her feelings, and he wants to be monogamous with her, while I sit in the corner, lonely, cause I waited too long.
So, yeah, I like a guy...... And I'm hoping he feels the same way!!!
Nicole Rene
Soooo, with that being said...... I LIKE SOMEBODY!! That's not new, though. I mean, I almost ALWAYS like somebody. And that's perfectly normal and healthy. No, I'm not codependent on a relationship. I don't seek to be with someone because I can't function alone. Truth be told, we (humans) aren't meant to be alone. Everyone's end game isn't marriage or a committed relationship. But every encounter we have with others, every time we allow ourselves to engage with others.....guess what.....we are creating RELATIONSHIPS! Yep. So when you regularly converse with your coworkers, schoolmates, friends, social media followers.....whatever.....you are creating and building on some type of relationship. Be it informal (social media types) or formal (school friends..etc.). That's what we do. We interact with others. Don't ever listen to someone say "I don't need anybody" , "I'm good by myself". While that may be true from a financial and even physical point of view. We all, on some emotional level, NEED others. You don't go through life not talking to anyone. No one is a total recluse. You gotta eat, right? So you talk to the delivery driver or cashier at the store, or waiter/waitress/hostess.
With that being said, it's a person's free will to decide they don't wanna build with anyone. And that, my friends, is where we are blatantly different. See, I like building with others. I wanna have that relationship where I build with someone financially, structurally, emotionally. I want to have someone's back, and that person have mine, too. I'll be the first to admit, though I have been single for a while, and have accomplished much during that time (college degrees, out of state moves, travel, this blog), I long for the day when I can share all my good times with someone. Now that doesn't make me desperate or thirsty. It makes me human and it allows me to embrace my spiritual nature, which is to connect with another being, so we can elevate each other intellectually, mentally, and spiritually. Wanting to be with someone is your soul speaking. It's kind of like when you are hungry and your stomach growls and hurts. It's hungry for food. Well, our souls get hungry, too. Hungry for spiritual connections. Feed it.
Now, back to this crush. Without saying much, I'll say this. He is a beautiful man. I don't mean like Prince beautiful (LOL). I mean, breathtakingly handsome, smart, well rounded. He's been places, seen things. The physical attraction I have to him is obvious. But what he says, his words, his spirit, all that is beautiful. And I feel my spirit wanting to let him in. Be open to him in many ways.
So what do I want from him? I want him to be in my life. And that may not look like a typical relationship. I don't' know if I will ever have a typical relationship. I'm so outside the box, so open to other relationship dynamics, I don't know if I would even allow myself to be boxed in just because that's the "norm" or the way things "should be done". But I do want conversations with him. And I want to sit in his presence. Feel his spirit. Let him feel mine. See, I see the God in him. What exactly does that mean, you ask? I see the elevation and I know I could partake in that elevation because of who I am as a woman. You see, as a woman, I want to be with someone who see his higher self, is working towards his higher self, will be with me as I elevate to my higher self, and will understand the part of me that yearns to walk with him on his journey. Now what is higher self? It's the parts of us that are enlightened, spiritually. It's like waking up and seeing the world differently. More clearly. And you look from an open view point. Like your mind is open. You seek something more than the basic "let's have sex, let's just do average things".
Okay back to the beginning. First paragraph, I spoke on coincidences. Now what does that have to do with my crush? Well, I know who he is from a group I joined (and left) in 2013. And through that group, I have met a few people. Some, in person. So I feel like that group was a catalyst to me meeting him. Like I had to go through meeting several others to get to know who he is. And trust me, none of them compare to who he is. Nor did I ever want to be to them what I want to be to him. I have communicated with him. He's an interesting guy. But I haven't professed my like for him, yet. Partly because I am a tad bit scared. But mostly because I can't read him. I don't know if he is involved with anyone. And I haven't found the way to broach the subject and casually slide into that conversation. But I know one thing: I will not wait and let another woman come along and profess her feelings, and he wants to be monogamous with her, while I sit in the corner, lonely, cause I waited too long.
So, yeah, I like a guy...... And I'm hoping he feels the same way!!!
Nicole Rene
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